Laughing For Hurt

I am going to tell you more. I want you to know that this must come out slowly. We are going to talk in a form of doublespeak for the day. Many of you will read this and assume that it is a schizophrenic. Most of you will lose interest at that point and move onto real literature to have a look at. There are many choices we make each day of what to read, what to eat, and what to consume. This is a general way to stating this. These things mean something to me. It's like shorthand because I can come back and read this to understand what I meant.

Some people will read this. They won't see the code. They won't understand what I am talking about. It will seem like doublespeak to some of you, but this is not anything about being a spy. I'm not trying to encode my ideas to send them off to another government. I am trying to write out stuff that will be useful later.

I can feel you wanting to knock me down. There are several sharks who want to make sure I don't feel good. This is kind of a tragedy in life. We are going to talk about this a bit. People stifling each others creativity in competitive behaviors. I would imagine taking an emotional letter which a distraught person wrote you is a competitive action. I'm talking about Lynda Walsh. How she might be somebody who isn't in touch with her feelings. She can't express sorrow. She chooses to make fun of it instead. She can take somebody's letter and read it at a comedy club. She has that much power that she can make fun of you in front of people who are paying to see it.

This is something that makes you pathetic. You tried to find comfort by telling her your awful feeling. She didn't bother sympathizing. That is how she is. She will take your feelings up on stage and show everybody how funny it is when crazy people send somebody as important as her these messages.

She would say she gets 30 messages like that a week. That she reads the best ones up on stage for people to laugh at. I can understand what kind of egotistical behavior this is. Little boys are told to not be a girl. They aren't allowed to cry. People aren't supposed to be weak enough to cry. Lynda doesn't cry. Lynda is strong enough to make fun of people who cry. She can make fun of them on a broad scale and many people will laugh.