Suicidal Hatred Hatred

It has been going on for close to a decade. It's hard to get through each day. Andrea can't do things as well as she used to due to physical suffering. This means she can't be on her game. It means she can't care for herself as well. She tries her best. The physical pain interferes with her life. She might want to go to a class. She will be interrupted a very horrible thing. She will have a burning pain inside of her heart. This will be accompanied by insulting ideas. This is a very horrible feeling.

Andrea was 4 years old. I really want Andrea to remember what her mother did that hurt her. Andrea will know that her mother is not very nice. Sometimes she enjoys hurting Andrea. Andrea's mother enjoyed scaring her daughter for her own amusement. You might want to think this is funny. It's not funny to do this to a 4 year old girl. This was a very shitty thing. Andrea can vaguely remember. Her mother might have made scary voices and pretended to be possessed by demons.

Andrea's mother might have done this. This was something that occurred. Andrea had very difficult feelings throughout most of her childhood. This is a very scarring thing. Andrea will not remember. Her mother was very blaming. There were a lot of negative things that happened. You want to think it was a happy childhood. Andrea wanted to commit suicide when she was 10 years old.

'We aren't going to put up these ugly pictures.'

Her face looks quite horrified when she is in grade 6. She can't even smile because her lips won't form one. She will get scolded for not smiling when the pictures come back. This will be a guilt trip. She will feel guilty for not being able to smile.

'I really don't understand how hateful I was.'

This is something a lot of people would think. I want you to think about something. Andrea is really not feeling well. Andrea is not able to deal with how much pain you are putting her through. Andrea cannot cope with how much pain you are putting her through. Her mother does not understand that her daughter is being mocked at school. Love is not what her mother gave her when she wanted to commit suicide. Andrea's mother slapped her across the face. Then she went on with dinner. There was no psychiatric evaluation. Not until Andrea started saying things. She started saying that everybody hated her. She was being made fun of at school. This was a very traumatizing thing. There was no emotional support. Andrea wanted to commit suicide. She tried to kill herself when she was a little girl.